Hooks & Helos

Y’all. I just overcame a HUGE fear. Uploading my first YouTube tutorial video. I feel like I’ve been working toward this accomplishment for MONTHS.

A little backstory: I wanted to do something unique for my kindergartener and her class for Valentine’s Day. Don’t get me wrong, I love all the candies that everyone shares for the holiday but sometimes I just don’t want to hand out ANOTHER variety of candy to the tiny humans. We did some brainstorming together and I decided to try out a crochet bumblebee pattern and possibly attach a cute card that says, “Bee Mine!” Cute, right?

I was thrown by the lack of actual free patterns available (that were *CUTE*) so I decided to make my own. So I wrote out and made my own pattern!!! (Yes, yes, I’m aware that I need to get it here on this actual webpage but it is pinned to the top of my Instagram if you’d like to check it out here.) I made 20 of those little bumblebees in various combinations of pink, white, red, and purple and the kids loved them; my daughter still plays with hers. (Which is honestly a big deal because if you know kids, you know they will be completely obsessed with something for like a week and then it will sit forgotten in a bin or closet until the end of time.) Check out all these cuties:

All the cool crocheters that I follow have a YouTube account and they show off all their cute patterns and amazing creations and I thought I could totally give it a try and share my own, unique pattern. Filming while you’re crocheting is not actually that difficult but the length of time that that video sat in my draft section waiting to be edited is embarrassing. I knew if I had the time and brain energy, I could figure out how everything worked but I never gave myself the time to sit and work through it. The intrusive thoughts just kept coming and continuing to make me feel that dreaded imposter syndrome—there are so many other crocheters and crafters out in the world, why should I try to insert myself in that space?

But then I woke up today and said, “Just do it. Once it’s over, you won’t have to worry about it anymore.” So in a way, it was sort of like that first blog post. Sometimes you just gotta do it. Press upload. Hit publish. Turn off the extra noise in your head and do it. Who cares if no one watches my video? I’m so dang proud of the fact that I just did it even though it was hard!

So get out there and do the hard things today! We’ve got this!

-Rashelle